As I walk in this new journey durning this new season of life, I realize how extradorinarily blessed I am. And I realize a little more everyday that I am not alone. This is huge. Because Christianna? Her biggest fear is having to sit and stand and live alone. But in Christ Jesus—in Christ Jesus—I am never sitting by myself. I am never in a corner with nowhere to look than down at my black corduroy flats. I am loved in this family Christ has created; I am loved by his children, my fellow brothers and sisters in him. And to me, this is beautiful; it makes me brave. It makes me want to love more. It makes me want to give more and do more for those outside our family. I want to make a spot for them right in the middle of it all. I realize more and more each day this is really all it’s about—loving more and giving more so others can live and be more in Christ Jesus too.
As I approach this upcoming Wednesday, which is my first day of public school, I count my blessings, just so I know how good my God is. And this week, like many others before it, I count my blessings in faces of others.
I have been blessed with…
a teacher / pastor who assisted me as I fumbled with the dials and digits on my locker. He continues to teach me to laugh at myself and live a little more intentional and a little more free.
an aunt and an uncle who were happy to give me a new wardrobe. I’ll walk through the school doors next week and I will not be afraid I look like a homeschooler. (Because this was a fear of mine too.)
parents who lead so well, even as they are overwhelmed too. They continue to put up with my tears and fears.
a special friend who is anxious and willing to help me navigate this way she’s already walked when in the fourth grade.
a cousin who excitedly declared, “God is with you, so you don’t need to be afraid!”
a sister and brothers who are willing to pray over me out of their own soft hearts.
a friend / mentor who encouraged me with a personal note, accompanied by a new yellow journal.
a girl—who shall become a good friend—who is willing to help me and wants to give me a place at her lunch table come sixth period.
an El Salvadorian friend who told me to stand unafraid, because God had great dreams for me and the others around me.
and so, so many others who have prayed for and loved on me in countless little ways. They make me brave and ready for everything I face.
If you were specifically mentioned or you are praying for me, thank you. Without you, I wouldn’t be who I am—nor would I be ready to begin school come Wednesday. Paul said it best in Philippians 1, vv. 3-5, “Every time I think of you, I give thanks to my God. Whenever I pray, I make my requests for all of you with joy, for you have been my partners in spreading the Good News about Christ from the time you first heard it until now.” Thank you for partnering with me. Thank you for loving on me. Thank you for leading and instructing me. Thank you for encouraging me. Thank you for helping me let go of fear. Thank you for being the children of God. Thank you for praying, because you are an answer to my prayers.
I read on Tuesday that the Lord makes his people firm and immovable. He also surrounds them like a valley which is surrounded by mountains. Through yourselves, he has surrounded me, and I am confidant in him. Thank you.
Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be moved, but abides forever. As the mountains surround Jerusalem, so the Lord surrounds his people, from this time forth and forevermore.
Psalm 125:1-2 ESV