My Jesus.

At the beginning of each week, I find myself asking, Why am I searching for algebra’s lost Xs and learning about things I already know — like the Revolutionary War and speaking life to myself–? Why am I doing this all over again?

And God always answers, in some way or another.

This week — like a handful of previous others — an update pops into my inbox like a gift sent from heaven’s wide gates. It tells new tales of good conquering evil and of the Gospel spreading and growing in El Salvador, as this same Good News refreshes those who live on the volcanoe-top. Sporadically, these words Tammy Ogden writes bring tears to my eyes. I feel her stories burn inside me; I know I am working towards a life like hers. Truthfully, I see not only the Ogdens working for Christ, but also myself. I cannot say that I share their struggles in Kingdom business, but I want to join them, with all that I am.


However, I have many years to wait. When God whispers my purpose, I don’t always like it; I have no excuse to quit if I really am learning for him!

In the latest update, Tammy said,

“As we look forward to the craziness, this we know: at the end of the day more souls will be part of the kingdom, more people will be challenged to go big for God, and Jesus will be made famous to the next generation.  This is why we do what we do, because we love him!”

And I am holding onto this as well. The work of my education does not directly affect the hurting, but it will someday. I’ve got to know that I’m called to go and heal the hurting as Jesus did and I’ve got to know that I’m working towards this everyday — Here. And now.

And I remember that I have only to survive three more weeks; then I’ll be a participant in the work of Christ with John & Tammy. I’ll be knee-deep in the messy ministry of the missionary. As I join twenty others, I know we will be changed and prayerfully participate in change for the Kingdom. Scaling the walls of darkness, we will set the captives free and bring them into our Father’s arms through interacting with kids and healing the hurting. God is good!

From the mission frontier, Tammy sends pictures which fill me with hope and life and purpose once again; I know I can march through all the goodbyes, Xs, and fears, like a good Christ-soldier. I pray my heart will be opened to this lesson of perseverance; I know I’ll need it out there in the world. And because of it, I’ll awaken one day and my soul will be satisfied in the face of my Jesus.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted. Hebrews 12:1-3 ESV


One thought on “My Jesus.

  1. CJ after takin our 1st drive with you behind the wheel & me riding shotgun, I am still amazed & grateful that number 1, this day got here do fast, and number 2, your faith challenges me. There are days I want to be like you. This is one of those days.


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